So I have been on holidays for about a week now???..... What have I done with my time?.... Not much, I repainted an action figure and mildly re sculpted the hair to look like me. Now My Jareth, Labyrinth action figure can have a girlfriend (if the unicorns didn't tip you off I'm a bit of a nerd).
I went to a small show in town with some girls from work, that was pretty fun, I even had a good time dancing and that's not like me at all!!!. The boyfriend and I had a few serious conversations, and we have decided that by next fall we want to try for a baby (hopefully we will be in our own small home by then). I have decided that if I don't get pregnant by next fall I refuse to have children at all, its a now or never type of deal for me.
I have started feeling my creative self waking up after two long years of silence, and I have decided there are quite a few things I want to do with my life regarding my writing and art. So I would like to have my kids now before too many of my plans get to far along and have babies clog the wheels of progress. If I have them sooner and pace myself regarding personal goals then by the time I pick up steam they will be on their way to school and free up a large chunk of my day.
So this next year will be all about creating a home, and getting my art and writing out on paper as much as possible. I would love to find a way to work from home for the next few years but also to be my own boss, sell my art online or even start an online gift store. I'm tired of working for everyone else, I want to be self sufficient and given the amount of money I make right now it shouldn't be to hard to meet that goal.
I'm feeling really motivated and confident lately. I know what I want and I also know I am capable of making it happen I just have to push forward and make it happen. I can do that!, the alternative is to continue to let life make me its bitch and be miserable. I don't know where this burst of life came from but I'm so glad it did, I'm really starting to feel alot more optimistic about my options in life!!!.