Im back..... wow I took a long time updating!!

Where to begin? The last day of my holidays was spent going to the bank with the boyfriend and finding out we would be accepted for a mortgage once we have our 5% down payment. Looks like our credit isn't as bad as I thought!!!!.

So We decided to rent out the basement of our house to help us save some money, we eventually (after a few weeks of showing it and haggling) found a nice couple to rent the upstairs instead while paying the utilities, which makes our payments EVEN cheaper now. So we will be saving about 700-800 a month!!!. Awesome now to open up a savings account and store it for our future home. So far so good, I'm not happy about losing a dishwasher and a bathtub but I can live with the shower and the elbow grease to save some cash. Now is no time to be a primadonna when we are so close to something so exciting.

As for the art, I started a painting and so far its my best yet, its a painting of a pin-up style mermaid, its inspired by Tara McPherson but only very loosely. I'm happy with it, I think it will add a great splash of color in the basement suite.

I am very excited for the start of fall, the leaves are starting to turn all shades of orange, yellow and red. The air is crisp and spicy and I hope we are able to make a trip up to the Cabot Trail next weekend to snap some pics of the fall colors!! *fingers crossed for some blasted sun!!!.

PUMPKIN TIME!!! I haven't baked any sweets at home for over a year until this past few weeks I have made some cranberry pumpkin loaf and pumpkin cornbread and even a pumpkin swirl cheesecake for my boss's birthday!!. I was even able to convince them to sell the pumpkin loaf at the bakery and it seems to be a good seller! This fall mixed with my new found creativity is going to be fun and delicious!!. My one regret is that I will not be able to spend Halloween with my friends and really celebrating my favourite holiday of the year!!! ah well what can you do???

The girl at work who was supervisor gave her notice upon our return from holidays and now I have been given her job, its a bit stressful trying to remember all the odds and ends that need to be done but it shouldn't be too long before it becomes second nature. At least I have some time before the Christmas rush to gain my footing. Unfortunately I think all the girls who have been there for some time may be leaving this year which means we will be working a crew of newbies this winter. That's okay though because the few new girls hired seem to be really hard workers.

Foxy (my little Pomeranian) had her surgery at the end of my holidays, she was spayed, had her teeth cleaned and had nine teeth removed. She was up and trying to run around a day after her surgery. I think I was more upset about dropping her off than she was about being left behind, I handed her to the vet tech and started to cry as I left the vets office.

They phoned me part way through the day to let me know her surgery went well and she was recovering fine form the anesthetic. My local vet is a really nice man who you can tell does it for a genuine love of the animals and not the money, its very refreshing. She is now playing with Mushu (my chihuahua cross) which she didn't do before the surgery and shes doing great. Much better than she was when we first brought her home when she was gaunt and smelly. She has put a layer of fat on her bones and is full of energy now I'm so glad we got her when we did she was in some rough shape, poor little thing.


Its almost election time and I'm not sure if I am going to vote NDP or Liberal I guess I will figure out who has a better chance of beating the Tories in my riding and throw an extra vote their way. I would hate to see the Tories get a seat due to a split left wing vote between the two parties. Ultimately I really would love to see Jack Layton as Prime Minister I usually vote NDP but this election is to important to vote your heart it has to be strategic to keep Harper out. I recently sent out an email to everyone on my Mailing list to let them know why I wouldn't be voting Conservative. This is the first year I have ever been this passionate about politics!.


"Words offer the means to meaning, and for those who will listen, the enunciation of truth. And the truth is, there is something terribly wrong with this country,
isn't there? Cruelty and injustice, intolerance and oppression. And where once you had the freedom to object, to think and speak as you saw fit,
you now have censors and systems of surveillance coercing your conformity and soliciting your submission. How did this happen? Who's to blame?
Well certainly there are those more responsible than others, and they will be held accountable, but again truth be told, if you're looking for the guilty,
you need only look into a mirror. I know why you did it. I know you were afraid. Who wouldn't be? War, terror, disease. There were a myriad of problems
which conspired to corrupt your reason and rob you of your common sense. Fear got the best of you, and in your panic you turned to the now high chancellor,
Adam Sutler. He promised you order, he promised you peace, and all he demanded in return was your silent, obedient consent."

V ~V for Vendetta

I think that concludes most of the excitment of my last few weeks, I will try to keep this Blog more current!

~until next time.

Plans, plans, plans......

So I have been on holidays for about a week now???..... What have I done with my time?.... Not much, I repainted an action figure and mildly re sculpted the hair to look like me. Now My Jareth, Labyrinth action figure can have a girlfriend (if the unicorns didn't tip you off I'm a bit of a nerd).

I went to a small show in town with some girls from work, that was pretty fun, I even had a good time dancing and that's not like me at all!!!. The boyfriend and I had a few serious conversations, and we have decided that by next fall we want to try for a baby (hopefully we will be in our own small home by then). I have decided that if I don't get pregnant by next fall I refuse to have children at all, its a now or never type of deal for me.

I have started feeling my creative self waking up after two long years of silence, and I have decided there are quite a few things I want to do with my life regarding my writing and art. So I would like to have my kids now before too many of my plans get to far along and have babies clog the wheels of progress. If I have them sooner and pace myself regarding personal goals then by the time I pick up steam they will be on their way to school and free up a large chunk of my day.

So this next year will be all about creating a home, and getting my art and writing out on paper as much as possible. I would love to find a way to work from home for the next few years but also to be my own boss, sell my art online or even start an online gift store. I'm tired of working for everyone else, I want to be self sufficient and given the amount of money I make right now it shouldn't be to hard to meet that goal.

I'm feeling really motivated and confident lately. I know what I want and I also know I am capable of making it happen I just have to push forward and make it happen. I can do that!, the alternative is to continue to let life make me its bitch and be miserable. I don't know where this burst of life came from but I'm so glad it did, I'm really starting to feel alot more optimistic about my options in life!!!.

white knight syndrome........

White Knight syndrome

A personality characteristic found in most males that cause them to:

1. rush to the aid of any female they see who appears in any form of distress.

2. Become attracted to said damsel in distress.

3. Follow the dying code of chivalry and generally act like a nice guy.

Also called young mans disease.

Despite the fact I am a young woman myself I think I may suffer from white knight syndrome. When I see or hear of family and friends plights I am up at arms ready to defend or protect until the death. It feels a bit hypocritical though as I am usually more passive when dealing with my own problems, I think a skill I need to learn is to detach emotionally when being confided in.

Its impossible to try to solve all the worlds problems but I cant fight that urge to take up arms, I wonder if I may be trying to tackle others problems as a way of avoiding my own?. Perhaps??? I also wonder how many syndromes one person can have at any given time?, will my white knight syndrome clash violently with my Peter Pan syndrome??

or is my hypochondria the biggest problem I am facing today???

why a blog???? why now???

Some of you may be asking yourselves... why a blog? what have you got to say that's worth hearing???.

The answer is this I'm not sure if anything I have to say will ever be worth hearing but I was inspired by a book I recently read to start to document my life in some form or another. Then I thought, whats the point of writing something no one will ever read? so now its online and maybe someone will happen upon it and find something of interest to take away from this.

To start the book that inspired me to try to chronicle my life or opinions was called "A Woman in Berlin" author: anonymous. This book is a diary of a woman living in Berlin during the fall of the Hitler regime as the Russian troops began occupation, It was an incredible read. She gives the reader details into the daily life in Berlin as the change of power takes place she records daily life from ration portions to the raping of herself and many other women. It highlights her own survival and thought process as these things are happening as well as her observations of how the people around her are managing to survive.

I hope there never comes a day when my Blog has so much horror or significance as this piece of work but it really makes you think how the written word can in a way immortalise a person. Had she never put pen to paper some of the more gruesome details of daily life for a woman living in war times may not be fully known, she has frozen a time period on paper for all to re experience this horrific time for themselves. Its a great book that really captures human nature at both its finest and its worst and I would highly recommend this book to anyone.

Yay!! blogging at last!!

This is my first blog......must find a computer savy individual to assist in some formating tweaks!!! Good times!!! Another new project in the works!!.